A Charity Kind Of Thing

Ok, today, this morning, at 9.11. I arrived at the Boys Home ( Salvation Army )
It was fun there except for a few problems though. ):

First of all, we all introduced ourselves to the boys at the home. And apparently, when I introduced myself. No one applauded! T__T I felt so left out like I was one of them. Butit's okay. The boys there rocks! =D

And after that, we got our duties. And guess what, our group had the STINKIES, DIRTIES and MOST DISGUSTING work of all. Working next to a drain picking up garbage and stuff. hahaha. But it was okay, everything was fun. Van, Joan, Hui Choo, Alex, Li Hoon and I were in the same group. And guess what, the girls left us all alone. ): Cleaning all the stuff. Horrid girls.. hahaha. *You know I'm kidding**wink wink*

Which brings me to a saddening topic..
This really made my eyes watery. Well..our group leader, this guy, I was too shy to ask. Sorry. Well.. he was.. erm.. the guy who was always getting left out. Looking and thinking about him still makes my eyes watery.
Wanna know what happened? Well.. when we were playing games, he was sitting, leaning on a pillar, all alone, just staring at the people playing, and having fun.

When I went to say hello and tried to convince him to play with us. All he said was : Wa mai seng.. mai.. mai.. ( I don't wanna play, don't wan.. don't wan.. )
And so, I was like.. ok. So, I just went to get a drink. When I walked out of the dining room, I saw him again, still sitting at the same spot. Not even moving.

So, I went to tal to him again. I TRIED talking to him and asked why he didn't wanna play but all he did was ignore and frown. I felt really sad already. After that, I went to sit next to Joan and Hui Choo on the basketball court which was near the guy. =(

While talking to them, Jon Mei suddenly told me that.. The guy was CRYING....
I looked across the court, and the one thing I dreaded to see really happened. He was rubbing his tear-filled eye; Frowning and was about to cry badly, but as my eyes turned watery, Joan covered my eyes, to block my view of looking at him. I looked on the ground and tried to control my tears, but it was hard to hold in. I rubbed my eyes and tried to stay strong.

The sadness within me was unearthing and quick. I know I may be sensitive, but it was well worth being. So.. I went to talk to him, but this time, Ashley Pan helped. But were weren;t able to get through. After awhile, we were about to have our food. The guy then went to the dining room and wanted food badly already. He was really hungry and couldn't stand it anymore. The caretaker didn't allow him to eat, and so, he threw a tantrum. He sat on the floor, where everyone was standing and looking at him. He started crying again..
And this time, it was really hard for me to stand it. He pointed the middle finger and was calling for food now. We had no choice but to call everyone and eat.

I was quit satisfied that he could eat. He was eating happily, but I could still feel the sadness in his eyes when I kept looking at him. Well.. I guess he was just.. TOO traumatized.. After losing his family and everything, and I think that none of the boys there wanted to be his friend too.. In result.. he was sad, all his life. Feeling nothing but sadness and angst.. =(

Well.. I guess that's how their lives sometimes end up to be. Just like that, everything's gone. I just wish I was there to tell the caretaker his problems and I wish I could help him calm himself. But I guess it's a little too late for that. But I'll want to go back there and hang out with them, their all really fun..

And to that guy I was talking about, here's a poem for you. =)

Although your life may get rough,
The path tends to get tough,
Just have spirit in your mind,
Then you'll have hope by your side.

Although you're broken deep within,
Do good deeds without sins,
Not giving up just to win,
Not giving up on life so that you'll always be where you have always been.

Although you lost your loved ones,
You may move on and start new bonds,
Running through all the sadness,
And fighting for that happiness.

Don't give up nor give in,
Just listen to the free wind,
And release your feelings,
You'll fly with your new found wings.

Just express and impress,
More of love and less of stress,
Just don't work but rest,
And let the course take it's place.

To you Home Boy. =)