Ooo.. delicious.

Hey everyone. It's still the holidays! Yadiyadiya.. shyt. Lol.

It's boring, it sucks. I want school! I WANT SPORTS DAY! =O

Anyways, Lance Goh created a new blog. What's it about? Something to do with him wanting peace? And to RANT.

ALRIGHT! RANTING! Ranting rules. It kicks mondo ass. Right kids? =D

Well, his blog's called lancewantspeace.blogspot.com! Remember to go visit. If you don't. That means you're a low-life loser who hates peace? =)

Just remember to go to it! I love Lance. *un-gay way*

Anyways, good luck Lance with the blog. We'll see whose blog is better at ranting =P

Alienated Words

I got TAGGGEEDDD. By who you ask? None other than ZOE CHAN GEOK LIN =P

Roar Zoe. Rooaaarrr. You athletic super uber awesomely cool silky hair-ed fast running long jumping beauty queen :)

Anyways, here it goes.

rule1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

rule2. Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. Those people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending to other people.
1. What is your CCA ?
-Chess??? O_O

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you ?
-If I'm gay, then yes, I would?? =O
3. Do you enjoy going to school ?
-Yeah! Cause I can observe sexy people??? O_O
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
-Spend 999.999% of the billion on myself. And provide food, shelter and everything cool for the hungry and lowly people =D
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
-Errrr. Derno. =P
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved ?
-What about BOTH? :)
7. List out your favourite songs:
-Five Minutes To Midnight and Lucky. Cause they make me feel hot? =)
8. If the person you like is secretly attached, what would you do?
-Ummmm. I'm not sure, but I would say.. screw it =D
9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
-OH OH! When the hot chunk of oil went on my lip and my lip inflated then I laughed myself in the mirror for 10 minutes and then I needed to go to the toilet and suddenly. Nevermind..
10. What makes you angry?
-When lunched isn't delivered ==
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
-UN-married, Short, Weak, Nerdy, UN-hot. ETC ETC (:
12. Who is currently most important people to you ?
ERM. Friends and ff--fff----family? =)
13. What is the most important thing in your life ?
Accomplishing what I had always wanted. . . . . to be muscular =(
14. Would rather be single and rich or married but poor ?
single and rich =D
15. What are your favourite colors ?

Hmmm. Red. Pink. Blue. =D
16. Would you give all in a relationship ?
Hmm. Maybe??
17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick ?
Neither. Later kenak beaten up by both =X
18. Would you forgive & forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done ?
Hmm. Yeah. I love forgiving. And besides, I forget easily.. =D
19. What do you want to tell your friends ?
I Heart you all. Go exercise! I miss you guys/gals and hope to see ya real soon. =)
20. What type of person will you fall in love with ?
As long as she's nice, sweet and caring. I'm good. =D

I tag:

Jas?
Lance
Charles Darwin Gallardo Pablo Ling? *correct? =D*
Andrea
Zacq =P

Another day another tag

I got tagged by Andrea =O OH NO. The super hot fast running silky haired fast talking blur personated non - responding young lady. Wow. Anyways, this tag's bout gangster in class?? I know I wouldn't be much of a gangster but here goes.

[ ]talked back to the teacher even when she was scolding you

[ ] gotten a phone taken away in class

[ ] gotten suspended

[X] gotten caught chewing gum

[ ] gotten caught cheating on a test

[ ] arrived late to class more than 5 times

[ ] didn't do homework over 5 times

[ ] turned at least 3 projects in late

[ ] missed school just because you felt like it

[X ] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class

[ ] got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school

[ ] text people during class

[X] passed notes

[X] threw stuff across the room

[X] laughed at the teacher

[X] took pictures during school hours

[X] called someone during school hours

[X] listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours

[X] threw something at the teacher

[X] went outside the classroom without permission

[X] broke the dress code

[ ] failed to go to class for lesson

[X] ate food during class

[ ] gotten a call from school

[ ] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly

[X] given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking(Oliver : I'm sure everyone does this =P)

[X] swore during class/school

[ ] forged your parents signature

[X] slept in class

[X] cursed at your teacher

[X] copied homework

[ ] got in trouble with the principal/vice principal or DM

Total:17

Multiply by 3*

post as ..% school gangster

And.. that's errr.. counts with fingers. 10....2..68..2..3...36.. OH! 51! =_=

That's gangsterish huh? Well, I know my blog's getting lamer and lamer day by day.
And there aren't many photo's, but who cares?! *you****readers* But who are those people to blame?

Anyays, seen the chatbox, there's this guy. David. Saw his blog. JUSTICE TO THE LITTLE KIDS! =D

Now I wanna chat about Justice. =)

Ya'll know what happened in Bali right? The bombings? Those gay fags went bombarding Bali. That's NOT JUSTICE!! =O

Me not allowed to drink a lot of soft drinks. THAT'S NOT JUSTICE EITHER!

And WTF is this!? This IS justice. =)

Anything else I can say in this post? Oh yes. Some of you call me funny and amusing. LIES. I am NOT. WHY?! Cause I can't make funny jokes, I can't make people laugh and I'm too.. boring? =D

I mean SERIOUSLY. Look at my jokes? My jokes are like.. making people scream like a dead cat getting run over by the same car over and over again.

What the tootie is that about? ): But anyways, kinda lazy to blog anymore now.

Have a nice holiday people! =)

Another day, another life?

Today was awesome. Only a few of you know this, but my mom is holding up a living skills program but it's for 14++. So form 1's can't participate. Cause my mom thinks were not mature enough. Which is true. =) O_O Sorry. But I can since it's my mom.

Well today, we made baked chicken and butter rice. Omg. It was good. As I was stir frying the rice. A HUGE chunk of oil flew off the pan and landed on my lips. I could hear the sizzle.
Wow, it tasted damn good, but it hurted me like hell.

GOING TO USE BROKEN ENGLISH NOW. *to make this post better*

Well, after that. Me went to Sarawak Club. Whys? Cause me is being invited by Kenny and Chad. Theres me is seeing Chad,Ken,Darren,Nick,Andrea, Aisleen? * sorry if I don't know your name, just met you * ands Zoessssss. =D
We is having funs. Basketballss. And badmintoninggss.

Enough with the crap already.

Ok anyways, I followed Zacq there. Wow. His driving is A.W.E.S.O.M.E awesome! xD
A - Awesome
W - Wow
E - Epic
S - Super fast
O - OMG-ness
M - Mega fast
E - Err

Well, his driving may be fast, but he's really safe. =)
Whenever a guy in front of him is slow.
He'll most probably say : *swears* SO damn slow!

What a great cousin he is =D

Anyways, it was quite fun. After a few hours, we saw Shannon a the badminton court with her brother. Besides that, before they came. LOADS of form 5 people were there. Andrea was training for Squash I suppose. In case you people dont know, he's the Sarawak Squash Player. I like his teeth =P

I played badminton with Keith, Tim Chan, Ashley. OH! I didn't mention we saw AARON FONG there too. And VAN, you were suppose to come. =P

It was quite fun. When me, Ash, Tim and Aaron were playing, we all were scared of each other? Smashing right in each other's faces. Wow. Fun. =)

I don't got any pictures cause I know my camera is really unreliable. *ahack. Stupid RM400 camera* Curse Kodak? =P

Shh shh.

That's all for now. It's 12.30 a.m. and Kelvin isn't sleeping yet. Tsk tsk tsk. =P

And so is Zacq and Kenneth. Probably Warcrafting =D

I dislike nerds. That's all for today.

Did I gain weight? A lot a weight? =(

I got tagged once more after a very long while.Thanks Lance for this AWESOME chance to do this. =D

Well, here it is.

1. What's your most favourite color ?
Black and Blue and pink? =D

2. Who is most important to you ?
Aherm. Lol.

3. How often do you think of comitting suicide ?
Oh wow. Well, frequently? haha.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence ?

Nooo. Noooo. If drinking out of a toilet bowl is confidence then yes. I do. :)

5. How many babies do you want ?
As many as I can afford =X

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain ?
YEAH! With the ponies on em too.

7. What is your goal for this year ?
To grow taller than Matthew and Kelvin =P

8. Do you believe in eternity love ?
Errrrr. No. (:

9. Do you think the person who tagged you,likes to play kidnapping?
=O Lance?! Kidnapping. I would want you to kidnap me .

10. What are you really afraid of?
A girl/woman crying. *I'm a sissy, I knoww*

11. What does love mean to you?
Love means.. to me la. That. Ummm. It sucks? =D

12. Do you have a secret crush?
Aherm aherm. No? =P

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yesh. And I HATE cliques. =)

14. What does flying mean to you?
Growing wings and flying over the rainbow! :O


15. What do you crave for the most currently?
To eat smth for lunch already..

16. Are you single/in a relationship?
Single. Yes. I'm still a virgin like Lance =S

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
Tall. Hot. Straight. Helpful. Funny. Smart. *progressive award aherm aherm* and gay happy. =)

18. What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?
Nothing.

19. What is the worst case scenario that happened in your life?
Hmmm. Last year when I practically had no friends? =(

20. Who's the worst person in your life?
No one. I love everyone?

Well, that's it I guess.

Now for some running and tagging.

I tag :
Muhammad Ali.
Graham Norton.
Arnold Shawrtzenneger.
Jay Leno.
Liz.
Joan.
Erika.
Daryl Wong / Chong.
Chai Chiah Leung.
The Tunning Crew members.
All the other Lodgerockz members.
Jas
Van
Zoe
Alex Sim * You lazy blogger =P *
Welton Wei * you badmintoning show-offy person? Haha. Jk *
And last but not least. ZACQ! Wong Ren Zacq. Zacqy. Zaqhary? =P

The Night Of All Nights

Not exactly the night of all nights but.. it was the 1995 ANNUAL FORM 1 DINNER.

Well, I wonder, do you people think it was great?
I had fun. Sort of. But it wasn't up to my expectations.

I got there. rehearsed a bit. And before I knew it, I was on stage ready to sing.
I was like.. Holy Mother! I'm gonna sing! *choked on saliva*

I had to admit, I was nervous. A little. But guess what, I made it through.
I guess a lot of you people thought I sucked. Fabian and Darren did a good job with the guitaring.

Well, it's all over now. NOW, wanna know what was the highlight of the whole dinner?
When THE TUNNING CREW people started crying. Why? Well, our main man, Nicholas, is migrating. Practically everyone almost cried. Except for those Son of a bitches with no hearts and don't even feel any sadness for them.. I can name out people, but best if I shouldn't cause you people would hate me.

But whatever, who am I to control you? I wrote a poem for Nick. I can type it out now, but lazy. Next post tomorrow then.

Well Nick. If you're reading this. I hope the poem meant something. Even if I only knew a little bit bout you. You would be an extremely great guy. Were all gonna miss yooh.

Benjamin Teo. BEN. Vanessa and I are like crying over you. You're COOL. FUNNY. Awesome. Badminton pro. A nice guy. You're just great Ben. Hope you enjoyed your party. We'll all miss you. ):

Pictures will be posted up tomorrow. QUITE FEW. Camera died again. Sorry. It's quite late now, so I'm gonna go to bed. =)

Clothing Disorder

Oh my shyt. What to wear?
I know! Black jeans and collared t - shirt. YEAH!

Well, what are you people wearing to the annual party? Smth good I suppose?
Somethin hot? Somethin cool? Somethin slimming? Somethin which makes your thighs look big?
Somethin which makes your ass look huge? Somethin which makes you a complete retard?

Well, many more choices people. Alright. Well. I don't have the pics of my baby brother's birthday party yet. Probably tomorrow?

I feel like.. ranting. Somebody gimme a topic and I'll rant on it. Say it on the Cbox.

Won't be going online. WANNA KNOW WHY!?!?!?!?!
Tm NET. GAH! They are starting to get on my nerves. STREAMYX IS SO SLOW. Oh and our internet's getting crappy CAUSE OF YOU LOUSY TMNET WORKERS.

You can go eat shyt for all I care. I want my internet back ON TRACK. It's disconnects EVERY 2 minutes! I took an hour to do this post ok?

My mom. Paid. RM 400++! Just to get your shyt. You should get sued cause of that. My mom paid for TWO bills. And you put all that money in ONE. So that means you OWE US our money. But what do you do!? You people cut off our internet for a friggin week. AND FORCED MY MOM to PAY RM200+++++++++++++ AGAIN! =.=

Is that fair Imagine so many other people who can't even afford a computer. THINK ABOUT THEM. Money doesn't grow on trees! We WORK hard for the money.

And you people rip our family off. Sue you mother******* ****heads.

And now you demand more money from my mom. Damn you people. Gah. -.-

Necessity

Well, tomorrow's the annual dinner. Or should I say later tonight. Cause it's approximately 12.13 a.m. and 32 seconds.

Wanna know what I'm performing?
Singing. =O I know what many of you are thinking.

OMG! Oliver singing?! Eww. I know I sound like a dead cat and all, but I'm still tryin. =)

Guitar players : Fabian & Darren ( The 2 super hot guitar players )

I'm singing : Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
And the other one? Oh simple. The Jonas Brothers - Love Bug =O

Now I know what's racing through you people's minds.
O.M.GEEEEE. How's he gonna sing the shouting omfg part? *fart*
Well, it's easy, I'll sing my own style. (:

Well, I'm gonna blog about My Baby Brother's Birthday Bash At Merdeka Palace later in the day. Say.. 3-ish? =D

The Most AWESOME little kid's party. Pizza, cola. Drunk people. Drunk with pizza.
Oh yesh. The coolness of pizza. (:

How can we live without em? =D

Be right back with it folks!

Pump it UP!

Ya all remember my last post post. The one with the trip? Yeah, the pictures suck as they're all candid cause I was trying out the batteries. But whatever here they are =D
Here's the angry bus driver. His driving is scarier than Zacq's! 0_0



In the bus with the happy people. Speaking of happy people. Here are the EVEN HAPPIER people! =D
And here's Matt with his.. erm.. chocolate bar. Told you there were candid shots. =.=

Well, today was the last day of school. I feel happy it's over and I feel sad that we had to stop going to school. I may be paranoid, but school is F.U.N!

Definition of F - Friends who do stuff together
U - You and Me
N - Anywhere and Anytime at ALL

Over here at Lodge school. =DTo star off the day, why not have some fun with the guys? Chit Chat, Blabber and why not get a taste of manly-ness?
Wanna know what this is? It's the class.. thingy... (: 1B maybe not the best class ever cause lousy people ruin it. Not to mention names =DAnd why not snap candids of people? No one would mind right. Aack. EEW. Photo. =P
Next we went to the hall for our last inspiring assembly of the year. Dammit was it awesome. Awesome I mean by boring and harmful to mind. :P If you look closely, closely I mean just simply look, you can see Tim trying to snap photos of my awesome ugliness. ):I was bored. What could I do? Oh I know! Snap candids of EVERYONE in the hall! =D Gay happy people everywhere!I look like a retard in every photo. So I'm not surprise. In case you girls are wondering : OMG. THAT GUY SO CUTE! =.=. Well that's Bryan Sim. Super cool hot athletic progressive award winning pecs earning mega sexy hairness of coolness. =D
Alas, the assembly was over. Everyone emptying their desks, lockers and so on. With what? BOXES OFCOURSE! (: Like what Everard does. BOXMAN.Yeahh... something like that. (:What we got here?? Lance posing? =O This is EXTREMELY rare of Lance to do something like this. Why not cherish the moment and laugh at it. =D I LOVE Lance Goh. :PAND LOOK! THERE HE GOES AGAIN!!!!!! O M G. How photogenic. =( Jealousy impulse.
Don't you love this? Me, Tim and Daryl. Sir Chubby, Sir Hotty and Daryl Wong. (:
Oh which reminds me, you guys and girls know the song I Like Big Butts?
The guy who sang the song, Sir Mix Alot? I got a joke.
Yo momma so fat, Sir Mix Alot decided that he doesn't like big butts. =D
AHAHAHAHAHA..haha..ha.ha.. right. =.=Continueing, Here's THE Alex Yeo and THE Aaron Tiong on their mighty mighty mighty MIGHTY and high chairs. =DI love this. Too bad Dobson's eyes are closed. Aww.. such a sad state of affairs. :D
Oh and Hannah! Still sorry for dropping your camera =X Don't kill me Welton =P
After everyone in form 1 went down. I decided to go to the form 3! 3B! Best class ever. So shut up you 3B people wannabes. =D Here's me and Diandra. The super photogenic hottie.
I'm usually not that hot. But you people think I'm ugly already anyways. =DDon't be lazy to tilt your head! Stretch your head a bit. =)
Here's the oicture for the form 3 field trip To...................... KUALA LUMPUR! For RM1000 only =OAfter a few moments. We went to look for Ashley! the HOT prefect. C:
Now here's me and Lorna following Cikgu Danny's OOPS style.

After a long hoard and frustrating day, why not...
CONGRADULATE MYSELF WITH FRESH AIR. I love Kuching air. (:

Before I end my totally boring post. I'd like to say.
HAHA! Group broke. Good for you people. And to SOME of you in the group. Being unfair is suckish to the people you're being unfair to.
Want an example?
CLASS PARTY.
Where'd the pizza go?

OH YEAH! You fkturds took it. We want our refunds back!
I'm glad you people broke up. Now less people will not hate you people anymore.
But look, MOST of you aren't bad people. You just get influened.
I can pin-point every single detail which you changed at.

What more to say. Breakng up a group which isn't the least of 2 weeks.
But I don't hate any of yooh. Want me to prove it?
Andrea - A cool and great friend. She may not reply me sometimes, but it's alright.
Erika - She's cool and loud. Hot? =) And she gave me a hug. =D
Lance - An awesome guy to trust. Never let's you down.
Daryl - Hot, handsome and cool. You can tell him almost anything and he'll help.
Malcolm - Funny in a mean way. =D
Siang Hui - Awesome laugh, cute and everythin.
Nathan - He's nice and TALL!!!
Everard - The super cool class monitor. xD
Aaron - The super mega awesome hot guy whose talking skills own.
Joan - A great person to be with.
Did I miss out anyone? O_O

And I'm not agaisnt you people. Just words from my point of view and others. You can hate me all you want. I just want everyone to have an equal share of everything.

Oh and, finally.


I'LL MISSSSSSS ERIKA KONG. ):
I'LL MISSSSSSS BENJAMIN TEO. ):
And I'll miss TIMOTHY CHAN! ))):
I'm gonna miss you three the most.
Have a great life in another school.
Good luck and God bless.

Tim, I'll see you every Saturday. =D

That's all for now.

Motivational camwhoring experience

I camwhored! For a long period of time. It was.. interesting and yet retarded.
Felt like.. a girl myself. =D
Besides all the other men who enjoy camwhoring, I enjoyed it!
It might sound weird, especially for a person like me. But I still like it. (:

I camwhored with a lot of people but the same one's. Sadly. =(
These are the pictures of ME and FRIENDS from ANDREA'S camera.

Let's start with this. Explanation : Me, Daryl and Lance wanted to do something special. And guess what.. this is the awesome lamely result. The girls.. what to say la. Normal poses. PREDICTABLE. =D


Explanation : Yesh. What I had said before. PRE-DIC-TA-BLE.

Explanation : I ate my hot cup quickly. ( Sorta =) ) Anyways, Why not use it as a prop? Reduce and Reuse?! =D GIRLS.. still posing as normal! (:
Moving on. Explanation : Van looks farny. =) *laughs hard**snort* Amelia still looks the same. And for me? An elf with a cup on his head. ): Daryl. Three words. You. Are. Very. Blur. (:And for one of my favourites EVER. Still with the cup. Only with fewer people.
I LOVE you hot cup. How can I ever live without you?
And who said piggies couldn't fly? WHO SAID COWS COULDN'T FLY?!
Who ever said men could? =)And in the end. LOOK WHO CAME?! The super uber hot, sexy, irresistable, mega extreme super model person from MALAYSIA! Lodge school. =D DANIEL KONG. We just couldn't take our eyes.. AND HANDS off him. =P
If you're reading this Dan. We love yooh.

Anyways, lately, loads of things happened. Not the bad things. The good ones!


Tim Chan's Birthday

Haha. It was GREAT! Barbeque-ing. Laughing. Singing. Dropping fish on the floor. AHERM. (: We played Tekken5? It was great. I owned and all that.
People swam in his fish shyt infested pond. But WHO CARES!?
And in the end. Me, Zacq and Ashley Lee, the hot one, sang karaoke.
Awesomely, Tim Chan's dad can SING! cool.

I think I'm gonna throw a party. Soon. I guess. Still planning. So hope everyone can come. =)

Until the next post. Have a pleasant shyt infested day people. I still love Dan Kong. O_O
And I'm not gay nor homosexual. Thank you.

Darling can't you hear me SOS?

Jungle. Trekking. =) A thing what naive students do on most field trips.
Lost in the jungle.
Awesome! =O

Today, form 1 went on a field trip to the Borneo water plant.. thing.. thing.
And the Matang Wildlife.. thing.. thing. (:

Chapter 1 :
Students scurried to the foyer like small pigheaded mice.
Pushing. Well, not actually pushing. More like Chiah Leung's butt grabbing.
As they took their seats on the smelly dirty floor.
Well, not smelly actually. Nice fragrance. =)
Speeches were made by Mr.Ling. The students listened attentively.
Mostly? (:
We set on our voyage on the.. Gawd forsaken bus.
The driver shouted angrily.
Awesome. Just because of the other driver. =D
Me and Matt, stuffing our faces with food. With our trusty sidekick eating menace, Justin!
Singing and dancing. Not really dancing but whatever.
99 bottles of milk on the wall.

Two words.

Holy Shyt.

Chapter 2 :
We arrived at our destination. ( For your info, pictures are coming up soon but very few cause of my camera which is a bloody pain in the butt ). =)
We lined out. Got our briefing. And entered the building our mineral water wonders! ( :

Gah I'm bored.

Ok I'll continue. I bet you people are soo interested. =)

We entered and saw the packaging of water. The unfication.
Ahhh.. sweet sweer water.

I feel like peeing. =.=

As we continued. Students were outstanded. ( Not really )
When we wanted to go into the box place of the factory.

Malcolm was literally walking on shyt. But he didn't realize it. =D YEAHHH!!!
Awesome.
Cool.
Terrific.
Yeah. =)

Progressing in the trip, Istumbled upon a bug. A bright red and green bug. But guess what!~

Come on, I'll let you guess.

Two more tries.

One more try.

You're not even trying, you're just scrolling down till you see the words.

Lazy people. I hate you. =)

Fine I'll tell you. But you better not laugh. Got it? =D

I sat on it. By accident. But no one saw.

It was sooo beautiful. Like artwork on the floor. =D

Moving on.
We went back to the bus. On our way to Matang Wildlife. The trip was weird yet amusing.
1D's bus was catching up quick.
But as we sped forward.

Students : YEAH! LOSERS! BOO! LOSERS!!!

Went we got there. I found another bug. I felt bad for the first one. SO, I let it go.
As if. It ran under the tyre and got killed. =D
Life is cool. Bug are cooler. Death on bugs are the coolest.

Walked in the jungle. Not saying each others names. I got left behind.
And average walk in the jungle??

Cikgu Lim Chee Seng : I wanna use your purple umbrella. * bursts into laughter like the coolest maniac he is *

I feel bloated now. And the lame pictures are coming soon.
So be aware!

Besides all this.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDREA TEO KA YI. ( :

Besides that too.

I got a few rants.

People who leave out all the rest. =D

I don't like them and I know you people like em.

It's my instincts. I hate people who are unfair.

And remember my last post?

Unfairness?

Unfairness to Victoria Siaw. =D

She may be.. yes that. But she's still human.

So why leave out people.

Yes that means you.

I don't know if you know who you are.

But everyone bear this in mind.

If you don't mix.

Can never campur teh tarik with KOPI O.

Sorry Andrea! =P

Don't feel perasan or anything.

I'm not hatin.

One more thing. People are blogging in class! =)

Lame shyts. :)

Anyways, Cikgu Chong Chiao Li and Cikgu Joey looked hot and cute todae. =P

You would call them cute if you saw them. So shut up.

Don't be hatin. Start lovin. =)

Enlarged abyss

Lately, shyt has occured, shyt as in real deep shyt.
I can't take much more of it. I just.. wanna migrate to another country right now.
I seriously cannot take all this anger, jealousy, sadness and everything else bad.

Let me start.
This group. Lamenad?
I have this feeling.. of.. dislike.. for some reason..
But I don't know what.
But let me explain my feelings.
It's not because I hate you people for gossiping and shyt.
But, I just feel.
Erm, lemme explain.
I'd hate to lose all of you.
I'd hate to lose friends like you.

I just feel, empty without you guys.
But at the same time, I don't wanna join this GROUP as you call it.
To me it's just another pathetic gang.

I wonder, why is it that you people want to make a group? It's silly. In my sense.
I'm not offending any of you, but it's just that.

Two simple words.

I'm. Lonely.

Ok fine, it may be three words but there's an apostrophe there.

I just wished you wouldn't push all the rest of the 1B aside and hang out as a group of your own.

It just doesn't seem fair.

And remember Math today?
Jordan was left out. No one would take him in
Does that seem fair, in the end, our group wanted to take him in.

It just doesn't seem fair to the others.
In your minds, you think Sophia is smelly.
SO WHAT?! She's still a person and to me she's kind. OK?

What about Edwin? Sure he can be annoying a lot.
But he's still a guy right?

Derrick, a lot of you assume he's annoying but he's still a nice guy. But he's in another class.

And Welton. SURE he ALSO can be annoying, but look where he's at. He has SOMEONE who cares about him but a lot of you don't. To me, he's much better than a lot of people.
He's actually nice if you know him.

But look at you people. Nathan, Malcolm, Daryl, Aaron and others, you keep telling him to shut up and cock and shyt. But what has he done to you?

You epople talk to but he never asks you to shut up right?
Just because he's shouting something to teacher doesn't mean he's lying. But all of you tell him to shut up anyways.

I know that a lot of you people who's reading right now might not care.

But this posts is more about fairness for others, it's not about me the most, I care about my friends, I care about how people treat them. That's the reason why I'm trying to voice this out.

I'm not accusing you people or anything. It's just me thinking I'm unfair. I just really can't take this.

I don't hate you Lamenad members. Don't take it the wrong way. If you do, you can come consult about it with me. I WILL explain everything to you. I just hope now you all don't feel insulted and hurt.

Once again, I'm sorry. ):

And lastly.. I want to get something off my chest.
I'M GOING TO STAY SINGLE.
I DO NOT LIKE LIZ.
SHE'S JUST MY BEST FRIEND WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT.
SO STOP MAKING UP SOME STUPID BLOODY RUMOURS.
DO THAT AGAIN AND I SWEAR THAT I'LL MAKE YOUR LIFE SEEM LIKE HELL.

So if you all got a problem with that, deal with it. Cause were just best buddies.
So don't go thinking that we like each other. That's just plain pricky and stupid.

Overdose of mental drugs

As I sit here in my chair, typing all of this out. I DO feel bad.
I DO feel stupid.
I DO feel lousy.
And I DO feel hurt.

It's just that, what I posted up earlier, you don't have to feel insulted over that. Just that it hurts ya know?
What you did on Friday? Yeah that.
I was so frustrated already and that's what you did.
You decided to the very ting I didn't want.
But you did it anyways.
I felt so.. angry and sad.
And the people who comforted me couldn't really do much. But as the days went on by, I started to realize that I really wasn't for you.
I'm no good for you. You shouldn't be with me at all.
I know I'm big-headed,selfish,ignorant,arrogant and all those things a girl would never want.
For that, I just wanna say sorry to you.
Don't feel insulted or anything,
I just wanna let you know how I feel over the matter.
Just hope this all makes sense to you.
OF how sad and stressed I feel.
Of how angry and frustrated over this issue.

Everyone knows now that I'm no good for you. So why not you live your happy life without me.
You don't need me in your life cause I'm only bringing you down.
Just wish you're happy and will always be happy.

And about that note I replied back, all I wrote on that wasn't from me but from my other me.
The me who broke down last year, the me whom I never wanted to reveal to anyone.
But I guess you tasted of how much of a prick I could be.
I never wanted to hurt you for any single reason.
And I can never forgive myself.

But I guess I can never be with you again.
This is my farewell note to you.

I'm Sorry..

I'm sorry.

Over You

Guess what!
I'm over EVERYTHING! (:
Now I don't wanna see any fights or anything over the 'incident'. =)
So no hate from anyone?
Got it?
So what if she's my best friend. I think she's nice.
If you people don't, then you've got a problem with me.
I just don't want anyone hating each other anymore.
As I can't stand hate anymore. (:
If anyone is sick of someone,
LIVE WITH IT.
Cause if you can't, means you can't accept life as the way it is.
ORRRRRR!
It means you're jealous over something life some low-life pathetic loser.
So don't hate someone.
You MAY dislike someone over something, but not too much.
Cause you'll end up on the wrong side of the bed and #### up your life. =D
SO GET A LIFE. :)

It's my fault

I thought we could've last,
But it was all a stupid contradiction,
Time to forget about the past,
Cause you can never forgive me of my actions.

You mean so much,
I'd change everything if there was a chance,
You were my feelings I had to clutch,
And I was just waiting for a day where we could dance.

I stay awake every night just making out your face,
Trying to stay awake through every phase,
And in that while I see a smile,
Not from before but now.

I know I mess up most of the time,
But I try to patch things up to make things fine,
But this must be the final straw,
Now in your heart I'll just be another outlaw.

I still remember all the memories tender,
I still remember how it was splendor,
From the first time we held hands,
To the last time we shared our romance.

It's all gone now thanks to me,
What you posted up tore out a part of me,
To realise how foolish I am,
To ever ask for your hand.

I guess I never deserved you,
Ain't that true?
You were too good for me,
Just let me be.

I'm alone now,
All by myself,
I don't know how,
I need help.

I shouldn't cry over you cause it won't help,
My bark isn't as thick as an alp,
Even if were over,
I'll just find some cover.

To shield me from your pain,
The pain you released from your lane,
To make me panic and break my cup,
And now it's just a plain break up.

Thanks for inspiring me that I don't deserve you.